i'm not missing u

this is my last big fight
d biggest one and i'm not okay
i cant stand not being me in this crazy part
i cant stand not being me after u come and give me a chance to be me
its happen in a right time
we know each other for years, but the "i'm being me" part come out to you on the right time
when i'm exhausted with full time fake social life
when i'm tired with fake understanding things
when i had enough fake me
its like an oasis in a desert when i can finally came out
being cynical and giving my cynical thought
without choosing the right words or the right time
without thinking is it appropriate for me to say it or not
even when i say it about you, to you
i am getting used to it when you have to live your own life
get your own things and i'm stuck with the fake me back here
i'll be okay if we never start it because i am okay long time before it
is it means i'm missing you?
no! i don't think so
because if i'm missing u it means i have to see u to feel better
i do feel better when we meet once that day after we have our own way cause i can be me for a while
but, once i got someone who can make me be me, i'll be okay not seeing you
i'm sorry i'm not missing u
u cant make me reach that part
i'm still a cynical-selfish bitch
i just miss being me..